Baby Wiggles McD

30 weeks + 6 days. Feeling awesome (mostly) and filled with excited anticipation to meet Baby Wiggles somewhere in the next 7 - 11 weeks! WOW! S/he'll be here before we know it!!!!!  I am now seeing my doctor on a regular basis. Between the gestational diabetes diagnosis and this later-phase of my pregnancy, I'll be at the doctor's office more often than not. Or so it feels that way... I had a good appointment today – everything looks healthy and normal. Other than my fasting glucose levels being higher than UCSD requires (my average is 93 and they want me below 90), I received a lot of positive feedback about my glucose management thus far. As many of you know, I tend to strive for a perfect score... once an over-achiever, always an over-achiever. In other news, the nursery is coming along – it's actually ready for a real baby! I find myself spending more and more time in there trying to imagine what it will be like when Wiggles is snuggled up in his/her own crib. It...

Whew. What a week... well, I'm officially 29 weeks (+2 days) pregnant... and diagnosed with gestational diabetes! Are you as surprised as we are?!? Well, it's true. My doctor was equally floored – "you're the last person I would pick out of a crowd to have gestational diabetes". Yet, here we are.  I failed my glucose screening test on Monday. And then really failed the glucose tolerance test three days later on Friday. Really failed might be a bit of a stretch, but I certainly didn't pass.  If I squint, turn my head sideways at just the right angle, I can barely catch a glint of the bright side. My fasting glucose levels are nice and low (73). It was just after drinking that 75g glucose drink that they SKYROCKETED through the ceiling. Clearly my body isn't making the right amount of insulin needed at this stage in pregnancy (my body should be producing double its normal quantity now). But as long as I don't guzzle disgusting, syrupy sugary drinks, I s...

I'm making space for all of it. Good. Bad. Up. Down. Joy. Pain. Happiness. Depression. Anxiety. Acceptance. Sadness. Grief. Hope. Loss. Anticipation. Uncertainty. Beauty. This week is pregnant with so many different emotions. We are quickly coming up on the one year anniversary of my mama's passing, which this year happens to also fall on Mother's Day. At first, I thought it was shit luck to have her first-anniversary land on actual Mother's Day. But when I brought this up to Dad, he said it was actually quite beautiful. I was a bit taken aback and insulted that he'd see things that way; I mean, how would he know?! He's not a daughter! But after taking the time to digest his perspective, I realize he's right. First and foremost, she was a mother. Anyone who knew Pauline could tell you that about her – she absolutely relished the role. She'd always wanted to be a mother. Being an orphan, I think she so desperately wanted to create a family unit of her...

27 weeks!! Where does the time go?! I remember when we first got the 'Pregnancy: Day By Day' book, it felt like it would be an eternity before I would graduate from the first trimester... and I here I am quickly approaching (or already in) the third trimester. Seriously. Different sites have different criteria for the third trimester. I've decided to say the third trimester starts at 28 weeks. I have 1 week to go. I've always marched to the beat of my own drum. Wiggles coming into the world still feels pretty surreal. I know Wiggles is in there, and will eventually come out of my body (one way or another), but it's really tough to imagine a baby in my arms! I am sure other Mamas had similar feelings?! I'd love to hear from you guys... I keep telling Wiggles to cook as long as possible. There's no rush to come out into this world. I may feel differently in a few months. I'll be sure to complain here if I do ;-) Thanks to Grammy and Grandpa McD, we off...