ups, downs & u-turns

Our fairy girl provides us with more joy every single day. At 3.5 months (ish), her personality is starting to blossom and it's been a blast to watch her change and grow. Thus far, she's super communicative, exceptionally curious, demands adoration, and clearly shares her displeasure with abandon. We may be biased, but we think she's the perfect blend of both Scott and I. 

As everyone with kids knows very well, it's not always baby giggles and luxurious morning snuggles. She went through a HATING car seat phase. And when I say hate, I really mean completely and totally loathed it. She acted like she was being actively murdered when we put her in the seat. It. was. not. fun. It seems to have passed though – thanks to a portable white noise machine, car seat toys... and dumb luck! ;-) 

As adults, we want to find a reason for everything – why a baby does or doesn't like something  – and, honestly, I think it can just be totally random. But that doesn't mean I won't go down the google search hell hole in the middle of the night to try and get an explanation for new behavior. I am human, after all. 

She's currently not loving the bottle (of which she has had every single day of her life since birth) and is preferring mama's boobs. It's funny, I spent most of my time worrying she'd prefer the bottle over the breast... not once did I stop to consider the other way around. After quite a few nights of mama doing both feeds, we're starting to make some progress with daddy and the bottle. Huge thanks to Carolina for your suggestions and screenshots from your book. Girl, what would I do without you?! 

We've started interviewing nannies to help mind Farryn two days per week when I return to work in January. It seems BANANAS to bring someone into our home during COVID, but we're doing our best to screen them to ensure their safety precautions and overall values align with ours. With only meeting over FaceTime, it's hard to really know the person. I rely a lot on someone's energy, and that's not something that can be felt over a computer screen. We currently have three top candidates that we feel good about thus far and the next step is to meet them in a park (masked). Hopefully we'll find the perfect fit for our family! 

It's hard to imagine going back to work and balancing it all... but I do trust that it will work out. I'm going with the flow as best I can. If I've learned anything over the past few years, it's to trust that things will work out. Put in the work. Give your best effort. And let go. Things usually have a funny way of working themselves out... even if it doesn't look the way I originally expected.